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I have a new Charpic, heres the censored Version:



The Artist is Zambuka

http://www.confuzzled.org.uk/ - 25th - 28th May 2012

Where are you staying?
In the hotel!

What day are you getting there?
not sure by now

Who will you be with?
Wulfer and Wachhund

Do you do free art or trades?
I can't draw

Do you do commissions/badges?
sure, I can draw you some stickman, if you want to pay me for that

Do you have prints/CDs?
nope

Do you have art in the art show?
Nope!

What suit(s) will you have?

This one: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7583214/

Can I dance with you?
If you have a good insurance for your feet yes

What is your gender?
Male

How old are you?
29

How tall are you?
about 183 cm

Are you mated? in a relationship?
no, I am free

Can I touch you?
you can try it. You will see my reaction

Can I talk to you?
sure

Can I hug you?
Sure you can

Can I take photos of you/with you?
I love photos, so, Yes

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
Absolutly

Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
Non Smoker, I only drink Cocktails, or Caramel Wodka. But I prefer non Alcoholic stuff. Specially Coca Cola

Can I give you lots of money?
YES YES!

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs, yes

Can we hang out?
I don't think you want to be in my near for a long time

Are you nice?
sometimes

In fursuit...

Where will you be most of the time during the con?
Its my first time at confuzzled, so I don't know

Other cons you may go to?

I'll be at Eurofurence this year.

Who are you rooming with?
I have a single room

Attending any events?
no

How can I find you at the con?
you will see the suit I guess

haven't postet here something for a long time

Here a few pics from the new years Party:


http://s925.photobucket.com/albums/ad96/Balto_Star/Silvester%202011/

Stolen  from nachtfuchs

What is your name?
Balto

Where are you staying?
Maritim Hotel

Who will you be rooming with?
Nubi

What day are you getting there?
Wednesday

The first walk in my new Fursuit:

http://s925.photobucket.com/albums/ad96/Balto_Star/Suitwalk/


(Photos done by Wachhund)

Since a long time, I am waiting. Since such a long time I am dreaming of touching you, hold you, feel you. I want to take you out of my mind, make you real.
Don't understand what I mean?
Since I have explored Fursuiting all this years ago, since I have worn a fursuit for the first time, its my way to feel my soul, my inner self, my dreams.
And on Monday, I can finally slip into my new one, and be what I want to be. Sounds weird? Perhaps.

For me, its absolutly normal

I am happy

I finally get the first pics of my new fursuit:

First, a happy new year to everyone who reads this. I wish you all the best. Luck, love, health. Take care out there!

The reason of this post is just that I can write down my feelings again.

Many months have past since Murphy, my dog, died because I was too stupid. I miss my big wuffy so much. I think alot of him, and still, I see him on my side, running there, looking at me. A strange feeling.

My new fursuit is still not in sight, and somehow I am loosing my hope, that I will ever get it. Scribblefox and his Mate don't answer on Emails or pms anymore, since two months. I know there were some private issues, but sorry, its no way to take care of paying costumers.

I bought some new Furniture, a new desk and a chair, And Iam really happy with it. Much better than my old stuff.

Well, thats it again.

Once again, take care of yourself! Perhaps I see one or another on EF 17 this year!

At least, a picture of kitty, which has occupied my chair:

Got new Shoes from an Armyshop today. I hope they have a better Quality than Nike and Adidas Shoes I had in the past

Sometimes it seemes that love is only for special people. Since Years now I am looking for a mate, with no success. I accept that now one wants an old wuffy like me. But it still hurts to see, that other people find their luck so quickly.
I only want finally find someone, who I can call my mate, and say "I love you" and when he says it, I want to have the feeling that he really means it, that he is not lying to me.

What else...

Its over one year now since Murphy passed away, but it still hurts like hell. i miss him, his friendly barking, I miss how he allways talked to me. how he grapped my hand softly with his mouth and pulled me in the kitchen when he was hungry or he wants to show me something. Since he is gone, it all seems so senceless.
Sounds crazy? Yes
But Murphy was a very important part of me, he was a part of me. And with my stupidness, I killed him.

Sometimes I don't want to life anymore, but I am not nearly brave enough to make an end to this all.

I am sitting here, thinking, crying and writing down what comes in mind. I think I will go, leave Austria, go back to Germany. Perhaps Nuremberg. It was allways nice there.

Well, sorry folks to bother you with this again. Hope you are all ok out there.

Your friendly, thoughtful Bastard,

Balto